Written for mental health awareness week

[dragonsclaw]

My Lover Cuts Herself

My lover cuts herself, I do my best to understand.
But my lover still cuts herself.

I know it’s a control thing with her,
but my lover cuts herself.

Every slash she makes into her beautiful body,
feels like a cut to my heart,
but my lover still cuts herself.

Every scar on her body makes me feel like I’ve failed to help her,
but my lover cuts herself.

I see her anguish and know that she needs relief,
I feel so hurt.
But my lover still cuts herself.

I watch as she cuts into her tender flesh,
I watch as blood flows, as my lover cuts herself.

I watch and see her self control return,
but my lover still cuts herself.

I’m scared that one day she’ll cut too far when I’m not there.
But my lover cuts herself.

I’m scared that I’ll fail again and lose her too,
but my lover still cuts herself.

I love her so much,
but yet my lover cuts herself.

My lover may be eating for two,
but my lover still cuts herself.

My greatest wish is to make her better,
but my lover still cuts herself.

To see every cut healed with no new ones,
is my greatest desire.
But my lover still cuts herself.

I wonder what our child will think when she sees her scars,
my lover cuts herself.

I know she reads my thoughts,
and knows that I have a dark place too.
But my lover cuts herself.

She knows her love for me is precious to me,
but my lover still cuts herself.

Am I strong enough to carry on or do I cut myself?
My lover still cuts herself.

[dragonsclaw]

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