Introduction
I hear some folks talk about their golden years. Mostly it's older people....looking foward to the future when they can retire and travel or do whatever it is in life they have dreamed of doing. For me, however, what I consider my golden years have already come and gone.
The day I left my cozy nest from my parents watchful eye...was my first move to gain my independence in search of who I really was and who I wanted to be.
My golden years came at a time in my life when I was very young, very naive and innocent...yet quickly becoming extremely independent, sassy and developing a desire to be a bit of a hell raiser.
At this moment in my life, I was, for the first time, away from the strict family environment I had grown up in. I was dealing with many emotions and trying to come to terms as to who I was mentally, sexually and spiritually.
Because of my strict up bringing I was constantly wrestling with my sexuality. I had become sexually active only a year before the following series of events occurred...meaning I was no longer a virgin. However to be quiet frank, I didn't really see what all the fuss was about.
My two previous lovers had been more than stale, making sex, just something that I did in the act of getting it over...
to keep my partners happy...
to keep them wanting me in their life.
I had never had an orgasm or any variations of feelings close to it. I had never masturbated as that was considered taboo in my spiritual world. And I had never had the pleasure of giving or receiving sex orally.
My inner self was at a constant struggle between what I thought I wanted sexually versus what I envisioned I needed sexually.
It was for me at this point in my life...a new beginning...
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